When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile. ~Author Unknown
I read this quote several months ago and was reminded of it this weekend. In life we don’t get to choose what happens to us, we can only choose what we do when bad things happen. Part of healing is having to deal with the “bad” or “horrible” things in life. The healing process is just as hard as the hurt that was caused, if not worse. As a mother, when you watch your child struggle through the healing process it is heartbreaking. Helpless is a word that comes to mind for me. You stand back and remain strong in their eyes, but inside as a parent you are falling apart. The days get longer and longer and the road seems never-ending. You keep pushing forward telling yourself it’s almost over…the healing will come, but there is a part of you that wonders if that is true. You begin to feel the guilt of how could I have prevented this. Why wasn’t I informed? Was I not a vigilant as I should have been? As I lay in bed at night, these questions go over and over in my head…. The tears begin to flow, my heartaches and I think I have to keep pushing forward. And then the quote above came to my mind. I start to think of the reasons that I have to smile. Every time the tears have started this weekend, I have started filling my mind with the reasons that I have to smile. Samuel will move forward and be stronger. He will continue to heal and grow. Samuel will be the world changer that makes this world smile. As I prepare my podcasting, I am preparing to allow Samuel to talk a bit on one of our podcasting episodes so you can all smile along with me.